kitah vav

this rebbe too is dead
i wonder if i cursed them to such a degree
this one made fun of my name
called my a derogatory nickname
suprise i didnt learn much
some ousiders that i was friend with left after this year once again leaving me lonely
a new kid came from out of town and i was friendly with him
still am when i see him
did great in english
but not in hebrew
i was 11 and being molested again by someone who lived in my building
sometimes i wonder why i didnt stop it sooner
i suppose it was fun
but made me feel sick
eventually it stopped
but about a year later i touched a 7 year old girl who lived in the building
that didnt last more than 3 or times
i stopped it and avoided the kid
still see her sometimes
and it makes me feel sick to my stomach
she looks ok
married with kids
i wonder if she remembers
thinks it was a joke
forgives me